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back when i was at school, i was somewhat wondering what i would do once i got home. now that i am at home, it seems like i wont be doing very much. my family has been planning vacation to death valley in southern california along with some other places, but aside from that, i'm left with nothing to do.

since my sister is still in school til friday, i get to do the usual 'drive your sister to school and pick her up' thing even though she already is able to drive herself. that aside, home has been surprisingly peaceful. all i really have to do is help out a bit around the house, which really isn't too bad compared to the stressful lifestlyle of a cmu student. yesterday, the only thing i really did beyond hosuework was arrange my travel plans for when i go back to school for spring semester. since a lot of my friends are planning a trip to new york, i decided that i would take the chance to join them there for a few days as i haven't ever actually been there before. i also ended up calling one of my high school friends which i haven't spoken to for about a year. we arranged to get together tomorrow, but now i'm wondering what we're gonna be doing since its been so long.

for a while now, my dad has been discussing my plans for the future with me. while its nice being able to discuss the options i have, i am often left with the feeling that i am not really ready to move onwards and that i am not going to be able to do those things. the only thing i really can do is go to grad school given the field i have chosen. with that, the only choice i have is to either go to grad school right after graduating, or to go to grad school after working a little for some income or whatever. at the moment, i find myself leaning towards the latter, but i still feel somewhat disoriented over the dwindling time i have before entering the so called real world.

i know i should probably do something, but i'm still left not knowing what i should do. maybe someday i'll figure out what it is that i really want for myself. so for now, with the unknown grades of the just completed semester hovering in the back of my mind, i'm going to sit around and see what happens.